To my poor stressed out hubby, sorry for the added pressure, but we’re getting there!!! Today is her 12th day after birth and she’s settling down to a routine (hopefully coz her internal clock is still a bit not right when it comes to night and day). As parents we’re also getting the hang of thing and ways to pacify her. Anyway, mini-Kristine is now named Zaydeen Kua Shun Ying – mind u, her dad took many days to finalize on her Chinese name and Zaydeen is not a Malay name! She was born 3.3kg in the afternoon of May 7th 2007 via emergency caesarian. Not a nice start to life for her. Poor little dear had a knot in her umbilical cord and during labor contractions the knot was tightening and cutting off her oxygen supply and hence decreasing her heartbeat. So Doc had no choice but to perform an operation to grab her out of mummy’s tummy.
And all the things you heard about mother’s love being incomparable to any other love? You’ll know it when you become a mother. Suddenly there is this little being so dependant on you. Well maybe more dependent on your breast :-p For me initially it took some time to bond. Being a caesarian birth, I did not have the chance to hold her the moment she was delivered so when they finally brought her to me in the room I was not so sure if that was my baby. Then through breastfeeding our bond was sealed but not totally. There were nights when ¾ asleep and Zaydeen was crying non-stop (despite me just having fed her) that I wished she wasn’t there. Yeah, such a horrible mum I was. Blame it on the hormones lah!!! Well maybe it was a minor postnatal depression, but I stood there crying because I felt like such a loser mum not knowing what my baby wanted and not being able to pacify her with the 101 songs I sung to her while she was in my womb. But on the day she was re-admitted to hospital for jaundice, that was when I knew what a mother’s love was all about. I cried from the A&E ward to the children’s ward, and cried even more at home. Seeing her naked little body lying under the phototherapy light all alone without her mummy, I wished I could take away her suffering and keep her company. So sleepless nights or low milk production, it is my duty as a mother to please my little princess. My reward is her sweet and satisfied smile. O ya, Zaydeen’s pics are posted in the following link :
http://fotologue.jp/#Zaydeen
That's when Zaydeen was still tuck nicely inside the tummy
In the labor ward still enjoying my contractions
Zaydeen just out from the Operating Theater
Zayden lying on mummy for 1st time
Zaydeen at home finally
1 comments:
wow...your tummy was so BIG...amazing :D
Hua
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