Sweet Life Of Mine

This morning I nearly died. Why? Because of a fire drill. That is how ironic life is. There in the middle of a highway a group of people were practising on saving their lifes and at the same time they nearly cost me my life! Well not them directly, but the scores of busybody Malaysian drivers that slowed their cars to look at the rising smoke. And me being the sleepy mum was half dreaming half sleeping half thinking and driving at 110km/h. Thank God I managed to brake in time too.

This reminds me of a show I watched recently that taught its viewers that life is uncertain, someone who is perfectly normal and healthy does not neccessarily outlive one who has AIDS. Today I am alive, and tomorrow I may be dead because of another fire drill :S Makes you wonder then is riches all that important? sometimes I feel poor, feel desperate for more money, more luxuries but will all that matter when I am dead?

Nope, guess not. Instead I must learn to be contented with what God has provided for me, and believe He will continue to provide for me. I thank God he gave me a sweet little daughter whose mere chuckling laugh could erase all stress. Thank God for my understanding husband who despite not being a millionaire but feels like a million dollar to me. Thank God for my 2 little dogs who welcome me with such delight eventhough I totally have no time to roll around and play with them. Thank God for my trusty red "sports" car that has gotten me to all my destinations safely. Thank God for my mummy who continues to love me and support me eventhough I can be rude to her sometimes. Thank God for my friends whom have brought colors to my life. So much to thank for...but if only I remember this 24X7 ..then life would indeed not be miserable to live in.

This is in memory of my father whom I miss so much. You may be far but yet your memories remain close to my heart everyday. As daddy used to say "Life is uncertain, but death is a certainty - do not fear death"

So much hair!!

Does all young babies not distinctively look like a girl/boy or is it just the case with my baby? Everytime we go out people will comment "oooooooooooo...so much hair, is it a boy or girl?" So now I end up buying all Zaydeen's clothes in pink colors just so it becomes more obvious she's a girl. But she does have very lovely hair and is the envy of every other baby ....haha..but my mum is a bit obsessed with it coz she's always complaining that the lady at the daycare centre is combing the style all wrong. Geesh, didn't know baby also has styling.

Another thing I am wondering is whether someone who becomes a mother would have a change in personality - as in becoming more angelic? This is because everyone is always saying to me "aiyo..mother already lor..why you still like that". Hmm, didn't know that motherhood can automatically turn someone from "alive" to "plain". No, I still like to jump around and act stupid, and road hogs still makes me boiling mad and neither does it stop me from scolding vulgarity during traffic jams. Or maybe I am just not a good mother ??!!! Well, I try not to say any vulgar words in front of Zaydeen except for the occasional "shit" and "f**k"...oopsss..

Talking about traffic jams, I just want to say that I absolutely hate selfish drivers and road hogs...especially those that drive huge SUV and think they can bully us lesser cars off the road. I admit I'm not law-abiding driver myself, and I probably ruffled a few people on the road too, but don't you just hate it when you are rushing and some stupid car drives on the fast lane and block your way. And they probably do that because they are driving a BMW and think they own the whole highway. That once happened to me. Some silly aunty looking lady driving her BMW at 70 km/h on the fast lane of a 3 lane highway. If I had been just a a little bit more madder I would have ram her hard and shove her off the highway :-p

So you see, motherhood doesn't make one angelic. At the moment it has only made me more stressed and impatient. Hell hath no fury as that of a over-tired, over-worked and sleep-deprived mother. So next time you're driving, make sure the person behind your car doesn't look like a first-time mother...coz tht's probably one of the most dangerous driver on the road!!!! Luckily for Zaydeen, my husband fetches her around and not me :)