I want to be a stone

I'm back!! Been such a busy busy mummy, and Zaydeen's already 13 months now. Below are some pics of her birthday celebration at her daycare centre with her other little friends.



And this link shows what she does at her daycare - typically being a hiao por :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tl1hVGN8zvI

Ok back to adult things. You may be wondering what in the world my blog title means. Well that's actually the conclusion I got from after some religious discussion with some of my colleagues. Being in Malaysia, we are multi-cultural and multi-religion and we supposingly respect each other's religion. Supposingly I said because I guess most religions do think of themselves as the superior religion. Anyway one of my colleague is a guru on Buddhism/Taoism Malaysian style, and I was just commenting that the religion is kind of frightening because there seems to be so many different 'Gods' belonging to that religion. Compared to that, Christianity is just about one God and one destination - heaven. Well it's the same isn't it, argues my colleague MC. Buddhism also has one God .... seems all the different Gods are actually the same God but with different personalities and colors and looks. Some sort like human I guess - we're all just human but we look white and black and yellow. But anyway, MC said Buddhism also has one destination which is Nirvana which is when one has achieved perfection and doesn't need to return to this world to suffer anymore. So for him, Nirvana is like heaven except that one doesn't just go to Heaven when they die, they need to be reborn into different things such as an ant, a dog, a human, an angel (??) until they achieved perfection in life.

So what is the purpose of Nirvana? For Christians we believe that in Heaven everything is perfect and there is love all around and that is all eternal. That is why we wish to go to heaven coz hell is a bloody burning hole. (My personal opinion!!) But Nirvana according to MC is feel-less. You will cease to have any attachment, any feelings and just totally unemotional. If I understood him correctly. SO my question to him was, does tht mean perfection is being a piece of stone? Is that what they want to reach? As a stone one feels nothing, hurt nothing, kills nothing and love nothings. Not so bad actually if you think about it coz then you'll definitely not be suffering at all. Interesting point. But... I think I'll stick to my heaven.

Yes I respect all religions, but I am not ashame to say that my religion is superior to all religions. O please don't send me any bombs or death threats - this is just a personal opinion. I'm sure we are allowed that, aren't we? And for those who don't know, my husband is a Buddhist and he gets to have his prayer table in our house. My dad used to be a buddhist too and my mum followed him. Even though she had loved the Christian teachings very much, but she followed my dad faithfully. Her teory was that she didn't want them to be separated in death. Awwww. I think it's the same for me. So dear husband, I'm waiting for you to become a Christian.. :-p

ACT 19:11 - God did extraordinary miracles through Paul for me.

Btw, my mum did become a Christian finally after the passing of my dad.

As time flies

With a blink of an eye, and it's already been more than a month since my last entry. In that blink of a month we have celebrated mudpie's birthday - well belated coz we were too busy enjoying ourselves in Jerajak. This is a picture of him with his birthday hat and of him enjoying his birthday cake :D


From the tiny little puppy that could fit into my palm, he's now 2 years old and a definately much more matured boy. It's amazing how a different spesies of animal could actually also learn to be attached to a human and he's really grown to be like a son to me. I'm hoping one day he'll be able to play around with Zaydeen and love her just as much as he loves me :)

Zaydeen too been growing up fast in this space of 1 month. From crawling on her tummy she's now able to sit by herself, crawl on all four and now pulling herself up and standing in the cot. O she's definitely growing up fast, which means I am also growing older fast too.

Today I was wondering aloud with my husband about what this world has become and is this really a world where we want our little angel to grow up in. Recently there's been a few cases of little girls kidnapped and some brutally murdered, and it has come to the point that it is even unsafe for little girls to be just standing outside their house! I find that really saddening because our homes have now become like a prison. Would Zaydeen not have the opportunities which I had as a little girl to enjoy her childhood? Would she not have the chance to cycle to the park with her friends? Would she not be able to just hop over to her friend house for a play session without mummy tagging along? My goodness, she won't even be able to enjoy looking for little 'longkang' fish in the little drain outside the house gate. Our children's childhood would now have to revolve around computers and television.

I remembered when I was in primary school, I was usually home alone after school and my friends lived along the same road as me. We would just go to each other's house and our parents did not have to fear we'll be captured by some pervert. There were days we even went to the big drain at the end of the road to sit by the bridge looking for rubbish or fish in the muddy water. In fact, I even walked to school by myself and it took me 15 minutes to get to school but my folks never had to fear that some sicko would try to sexually assault me. Sure occasionally there were those problematic 'flasher' but compared to the perverts of today, those 'flasher' now seems to be pretty harmless.

Much as I hate to become those overly anxious parent, but I think I have no choice in today's world but to ensure such heinous crime doesn't happen to my little angel. What option would I have besides being by her side every minute possible? I could only imagine the pain and suffering the parents of those missing girls go through. I however cannot imagine what kind of human could be so cold hearted to harm a being so young and innoccent. Could it be they are really without soul and compassion? How frightening if that was true.....