I wonder if it's the season or just the stress of life that causes more idiots to pop up nowadays. I'm sure plenty of people would call me an idiot too without me knowing about it, but I sure hope I'm not as big an idiot as the idiots that crossed my path recently.
The past week I came down with some strange illness that just left me really lifeless and unfocused, and I suspected it was due to high blood pressure. So anyway, all I wanted was to rest and not be stressed further. You can imagine my frustration and my irritation when instead all kind of idiots started cropping up and giving me problems. I was accused of things which I did not do and could not be there to defend myself. And it made me think was it worth all my effort of fighting and dedicating my time to my work, when all I was repaid with was frustration and ungratefulness?
It's not only work. On the roads too there lay many idiots. Just the other day, some guy who wasn't patient enough to wait in the proper lane tried to jump the queue and cut into my lane. Being in such a horrible bad mood that I was, I was pretty determine this was one bugger who would not be bullying me. So at the expense of my car being scratched by the idiot, I just refused to allow him into my lane. And can u believe it, the idiot actually horned at me and gave me the middle finger! And after that when I got in front of him, he used his highlights to flash me. What has people become that they think it's their right to scold others when they themself were in the wrong in the first place? Do they think that the whole world needs to bow down to their needs and wants?
Yes there are plenty of those kind of people cropping up in the world today. Everyone has gotten so self-centred that everything is always about them, them and them. They do not see the fault in stepping on those who are more considerate. Like the bitch who made the fuss and stole my new laptop. *Pissed beyond words* Everyday experience has only taught me that one has to talk loud, act brash, and be totally selfish to get ahead. In other words, be a total idiot and you will be rewarded with whatever you want!
However nice it may be to have all that I want, yet I do not think that is what I want to be. What is the point of getting everything but on the other hand you get loss of respect and curses on you and your future generation? As my good friend advised me, no matter how bad peope may treat you, do not stoop to their level. Continue to be someone good and nice, even to those who do not deserve it. Even God provides to those who are undeserving! So all you idiots, you can continue taking advantage of my good nature. Continue using me for your own needs. Continue being incosiderate to my feelings. Because what matters to me is not you.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Friday, November 18, 2005
How To Keep The Passion Alive
Marriage is a bore. Passion can never last......
Is that statement right or wrong in your opinion? I have never been married, so I won't even dare to answer that! So from this point on I speak from the experiences that people share with me ya :)
When you're dating, everything is rosy and fine. U pay for your own stuff. U drive your own car. U pay ur own credit card bills. Dirty laundry? Do it urself of course. If u argue, U go back to sleep in your own bed and not speak to each other for a few days. After not seeing each other for a few hours, u just missssssssss the other so much that you contemplate marrying just so u can be together forever. Awww...how sweet.....
UNTIL u actually do live together, and start arguing over who does the cleaning, who pays the damn utilities bill, who does the cooking, who irons the clothes. And heck, that is even before baby comes along! So with all these "pressures" of staying together, how do u suppose the fire of passion can stay lighted?!! And then comes the too frequently used line - "not tonight honey, I'm tired" :-p
So after hearing this from not one but several friends, a logical conclusion would be DON'T GET MARRIED. And if you do, live apart!
No come on, there must be a more logical way to this, right? Women magazines always advice 'interesting' stuffs like dressing up as a nurse, or surprising ur partner by being naked when he comes home, or preparing romantic candlelight dinners once a month...and the best...buying a full set of leather clothing and accessories to be used in the bedroom. *saliva dripping* BUT how many of u actually do that, huh huh? Try it lar!
For me sometimes being in a non-married relationship also can get boring. Maybe boring is not the right word. Maybe we should call it mundane? Or predictable? Ya!!! Predictable must be the word. It happens when you get so used to a person that you can tell everything that person is going to do, so there's no surprises left for u. And that leads to boringness. So this means that to keep the passion alive, you have to remain mysterious and unpredictable. If your romantic dinner is always at a western steak house, why not change to spicy Northern Indian the next time - guaranteed to make you sweat! Always dressed in t-shirt and jeans? Wear something captivating and sexy once a while to make your partner drool for you. If your usual 'playtime' location is in the bedroom, maybe the next time you can get horny in the kitchen? (ooo....don't forget to fully utilise all the fruits and owww..the ice..owww)
But please remember this everyone. Never equate passion to love. You may lose your passion for your partner, but that does not mean you have stopped loving him/her. Just because you don't feel like kissing ur partner, or jumping into bed with him/her, or you don't even miss them after not seeing them for a week, THAT DOES NOT mean you don't love anymore. Passion needs to be worked on sometimes. From all the Aunt Agony letters I read in the newspaper, I feel a lot of people have made this mistake. They meet someone new and get passionate about that person, and because of the raised passion they feel they are in love when in actual fact it is just plain lust. Because of their new found 'love', they drop their current partner to discover later they don't actually love the new one. So dear friends, do tread carefully. And of course don't forget that a piece of ice can be VERY PASSIONATE. (I speak from other's experience and not mine *angelic smile*)
In conclusion, love earnestly and sincerely. Sometimes love needs a bit of helping hand. So once a while add some sugar and spice into the relationship. Once a while remind your partner why they captivate you and what you love so much about them. Compliment them if they look good. Give each other more hugs and kisses. All small things, but could cause serious electrocution between you both ;) If all else fails, just say the 3 magical words - I love you. Never fails :D
TGIF!!
Is that statement right or wrong in your opinion? I have never been married, so I won't even dare to answer that! So from this point on I speak from the experiences that people share with me ya :)
When you're dating, everything is rosy and fine. U pay for your own stuff. U drive your own car. U pay ur own credit card bills. Dirty laundry? Do it urself of course. If u argue, U go back to sleep in your own bed and not speak to each other for a few days. After not seeing each other for a few hours, u just missssssssss the other so much that you contemplate marrying just so u can be together forever. Awww...how sweet.....
UNTIL u actually do live together, and start arguing over who does the cleaning, who pays the damn utilities bill, who does the cooking, who irons the clothes. And heck, that is even before baby comes along! So with all these "pressures" of staying together, how do u suppose the fire of passion can stay lighted?!! And then comes the too frequently used line - "not tonight honey, I'm tired" :-p
So after hearing this from not one but several friends, a logical conclusion would be DON'T GET MARRIED. And if you do, live apart!
No come on, there must be a more logical way to this, right? Women magazines always advice 'interesting' stuffs like dressing up as a nurse, or surprising ur partner by being naked when he comes home, or preparing romantic candlelight dinners once a month...and the best...buying a full set of leather clothing and accessories to be used in the bedroom. *saliva dripping* BUT how many of u actually do that, huh huh? Try it lar!
For me sometimes being in a non-married relationship also can get boring. Maybe boring is not the right word. Maybe we should call it mundane? Or predictable? Ya!!! Predictable must be the word. It happens when you get so used to a person that you can tell everything that person is going to do, so there's no surprises left for u. And that leads to boringness. So this means that to keep the passion alive, you have to remain mysterious and unpredictable. If your romantic dinner is always at a western steak house, why not change to spicy Northern Indian the next time - guaranteed to make you sweat! Always dressed in t-shirt and jeans? Wear something captivating and sexy once a while to make your partner drool for you. If your usual 'playtime' location is in the bedroom, maybe the next time you can get horny in the kitchen? (ooo....don't forget to fully utilise all the fruits and owww..the ice..owww)
But please remember this everyone. Never equate passion to love. You may lose your passion for your partner, but that does not mean you have stopped loving him/her. Just because you don't feel like kissing ur partner, or jumping into bed with him/her, or you don't even miss them after not seeing them for a week, THAT DOES NOT mean you don't love anymore. Passion needs to be worked on sometimes. From all the Aunt Agony letters I read in the newspaper, I feel a lot of people have made this mistake. They meet someone new and get passionate about that person, and because of the raised passion they feel they are in love when in actual fact it is just plain lust. Because of their new found 'love', they drop their current partner to discover later they don't actually love the new one. So dear friends, do tread carefully. And of course don't forget that a piece of ice can be VERY PASSIONATE. (I speak from other's experience and not mine *angelic smile*)
In conclusion, love earnestly and sincerely. Sometimes love needs a bit of helping hand. So once a while add some sugar and spice into the relationship. Once a while remind your partner why they captivate you and what you love so much about them. Compliment them if they look good. Give each other more hugs and kisses. All small things, but could cause serious electrocution between you both ;) If all else fails, just say the 3 magical words - I love you. Never fails :D
TGIF!!
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Whatsoever things are true…think on these things
The other day I was having a round table conference with a bunch of my friends, and we were very troubled. Why? Coz a year ago, maybe 2 in fact, we were also gathered together in the same way, and thinking deeply on the very same matter we had that day. What do we want in life? It was troubling to know that we ask this question year after year, and year after year we still don’t have an answer to it! I don’t think any of us were stupid morons, but somehow I think we have just been programmed to continue each day as we did before. Heck I wanted to work part time at the pet shop for 4.50 an hour and they laughed at me saying my parking and petrol would cost more than what I would earn. Such encouraging friends you are!!!
Then today 3 different persons came to me to announce they are very bored with life, and that life has no meaning, love has no meaning, work has no meaning. And did you notice when people keep repeating the same thing to you over and over like a broken record, you tend to fall for it and believe it yourself? An example is my colleague who keeps telling me he has some resemblance to Leslie Cheung. In the beginning I wanted to vomit, but nowadays I see some attractiveness in him. Oopss…the key word is “SOME”. Anyway, why has life become so meaningless to most people nowadays? Even for me I must admit. If suicide was not such an unforgivable sin, I think most would have just finished off their mundane life on earth. I spend so much time thinking about where to find happiness, what I want for my future, how I want to be treated, how I want to love, what is right, what is wrong, where I should head in my career…that I suddenly realized why am I wasting so much time worrying and thinking about things that might never happen? The bible quote that guides me today is the title of this blog – Whatsoever things are true...think on these things.
Worried about paying off your house loan? Why worry because worry is just a guess that you might not be able to pay it off in future. But you can today right? So focus on what’s real. Wondering where you are heading in your career? Well stop it, because what you are doing today is real. Don’t continue to wonder when you will be the CEO or COO, because you can’t be any of those without perfecting what you are doing now. And only by focusing on it can you perfect it, right? Are you suspicious that your partner is cheating on you or lying to you about something? As long as the proof doesn’t hit you in the face, the truth is he/she is still your partner and you got to focus on making sure he/she remains your partner. So what’s the conclusion? I think it means live your life today and don’t worry about the possibilities of tomorrow.
Ok that dealt with continual living, but still doesn’t solve the part about ‘what do I want’. I would never know what I want at work that’s for sure. I just filled in my personal work review, and frankly I have no clue what nonsense I was filling in. I actually just wanted to write on the form in big bold letter “since you’re never gonna raise my salary and this review is just going straight into some filing cabinet, then why are you wasting my f**king time doing this”. But of course even on PMS days, I have a very logical mind :D
Next what do I want in love? The aunties in my office always remind me this – forget the looks, make sure he’s rich. And o, on some good days they might add – make sure he is faithful and caring. Oooo, for a moment I thought they just cared about the money...haha. I might as well be wishing for Brad Pitt to appear at my doorstep, right? What do I want, what do I want? I think at this moment I just want a man who’s there for me at every moment in my life, and not someone whom I have to be on guard with 24/7 and always doubting his intentions towards me. Ah..that reminds me about an interesting relationship discussion, but that should come in my next blog.
I think I’m tired already of thinking what I want. Only God knows what I truly want. Or maybe a certain Jason is right – maybe we should give ourselves time to sit down quietly and reflect peacefully within ourselves what we truly want. Well maybe one day…until then I would look forward to next year when I can gather round the table with my friends again and ask ourselves the question “What do I want” AGAIN! Cheers mate!
Then today 3 different persons came to me to announce they are very bored with life, and that life has no meaning, love has no meaning, work has no meaning. And did you notice when people keep repeating the same thing to you over and over like a broken record, you tend to fall for it and believe it yourself? An example is my colleague who keeps telling me he has some resemblance to Leslie Cheung. In the beginning I wanted to vomit, but nowadays I see some attractiveness in him. Oopss…the key word is “SOME”. Anyway, why has life become so meaningless to most people nowadays? Even for me I must admit. If suicide was not such an unforgivable sin, I think most would have just finished off their mundane life on earth. I spend so much time thinking about where to find happiness, what I want for my future, how I want to be treated, how I want to love, what is right, what is wrong, where I should head in my career…that I suddenly realized why am I wasting so much time worrying and thinking about things that might never happen? The bible quote that guides me today is the title of this blog – Whatsoever things are true...think on these things.
Worried about paying off your house loan? Why worry because worry is just a guess that you might not be able to pay it off in future. But you can today right? So focus on what’s real. Wondering where you are heading in your career? Well stop it, because what you are doing today is real. Don’t continue to wonder when you will be the CEO or COO, because you can’t be any of those without perfecting what you are doing now. And only by focusing on it can you perfect it, right? Are you suspicious that your partner is cheating on you or lying to you about something? As long as the proof doesn’t hit you in the face, the truth is he/she is still your partner and you got to focus on making sure he/she remains your partner. So what’s the conclusion? I think it means live your life today and don’t worry about the possibilities of tomorrow.
Ok that dealt with continual living, but still doesn’t solve the part about ‘what do I want’. I would never know what I want at work that’s for sure. I just filled in my personal work review, and frankly I have no clue what nonsense I was filling in. I actually just wanted to write on the form in big bold letter “since you’re never gonna raise my salary and this review is just going straight into some filing cabinet, then why are you wasting my f**king time doing this”. But of course even on PMS days, I have a very logical mind :D
Next what do I want in love? The aunties in my office always remind me this – forget the looks, make sure he’s rich. And o, on some good days they might add – make sure he is faithful and caring. Oooo, for a moment I thought they just cared about the money...haha. I might as well be wishing for Brad Pitt to appear at my doorstep, right? What do I want, what do I want? I think at this moment I just want a man who’s there for me at every moment in my life, and not someone whom I have to be on guard with 24/7 and always doubting his intentions towards me. Ah..that reminds me about an interesting relationship discussion, but that should come in my next blog.
I think I’m tired already of thinking what I want. Only God knows what I truly want. Or maybe a certain Jason is right – maybe we should give ourselves time to sit down quietly and reflect peacefully within ourselves what we truly want. Well maybe one day…until then I would look forward to next year when I can gather round the table with my friends again and ask ourselves the question “What do I want” AGAIN! Cheers mate!
Monday, November 14, 2005
Chicken Lala-land Part II
Finally I’m back from my long awaited holiday, and got to say once again – never have expectations or you’ll be disappointed! It all started rather comically at the airport when I landed, and kind of got “kidnapped” by the local taxi man who was actually trying to escape penalty fine from the policeman at the airport, and started driving me round the airport while I was negotiating my fees with him!
Then came all the tiring walks, not to mention the long haggling over which sites we should visit. And then it was the LONG LONG time it took to further negotiate taxi fares with unscrupulous taxi men who just refused to use the darn meter. Yeah, taxi man and a whole lot of other people left a very bad taste of this chicken land. In fact now I want to rename it to Con-Man land instead! Everywhere you turn someone who’s pretending to be helpful and kind is just waiting to pounce on you and rip some money off you. At least that’s what I felt at the end of my journey there. I think the one that took the cake was probably the assholes at the go-go bar call CASANOVA. Take note...never enter this dungeon! The girls in there were apparently up to Ung’s taste (BAD BAD taste Ung!!) If you’re one who’s into fat flabby body with manly face strutting their urrgh..breast and bums, then this is one place you cannot miss. For the rest of us who are sane and have good taste, this is one place to avoid at all cost. And they had the nerve to want to charge us additional fees for watching those ugly monsters pulling balls out of their pussy and shaking their fats on the bar top. Duh~~ even my dog would look better up there than them!
Overall top enjoyments of this trip:
1) Replenished my supply of lingeries…definitely cheaper and more designs available in Lala-land
2) Slurping down the nice yummy bird nest for only 300 Baht, and seeing SP go high on that. Weird girl to be getting high on bird’s saliva, but I guess some people do have preference for body liquids rather than drugs or alcohol :-p
3) Visiting the Royal Palace and wat wats (temples) in Ayutthaya. Well honestly I was more interested in meeting all those delicious looking Jap guys that were on tour there - until I found their makeup too faggot-ish and taste of clothing out of this world. Heck, but still delicious looking *slurp*
4) Cruising down the Chao Praya river and waiting for the canal gates to open.
5) Savoring the delicious seafood dinner over at Chinatown on our last night.
Overall top regrets :
1) Entering Casanova go-go bar and watching naked fat ladies (or were they men?!) pretending to be sexy. Word of advice from Lonely Planet, stick to the bars at ground level in which you can see the REAL hot babes. Highly recommended by Jay is King’s Castle, King Castle II, Queen’s Castle…and maybe some Pussy Doll?!
2) Missing out on an authentic thai massage! I really regret this one *sob..and double sob*
3) Missing out on the Floating Market, and instead being conned into visiting another floating market on the canal cruise. Best laugh was when boatman said “In front floating market” and all of us stick our head out to see. WAH….geesh, only one boat floating and that’s called a market! That must be the super con job of the year!
4) Spending only an hour in Juktuchak market. This weekend market is so freaking huge I think it would take at least a day to finish exploring it. Well at least less shopping = more money saved :(
5) Not braiding my hair aka hippy style at Khao San road. Would have been so cool to walk into my customer’s meeting and see their jaw drop in seeing they have hired a loony consultant. But then I think they already know that! :D
Ah well, so that was the lovely holiday. And trust me, holidays are so tiring! I need to work another year to gain some rest to recuperate…haha. Next on the list folks – JiuZhaiGou. Start saving your money, and start practicing on those mountain hikings. This time we’re not making Paul the tour guide – “yao yee sing, mou yan sing” bugger :-p Well at least this time he stayed off the chickens. Good boy!
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